Brand New Day

Some kind of magic
Happens late at night
When the moon smiles down on me
And bathes me in it’s light

I fell asleep beneath you
In the tall blades of grass
When I woke the world was new
I never had to ask

It’s a brand new day
The sun is shinning
It’s a brand new day
For the first time
In such a long long time
I know
I’ll be ok

Most kind of stories
Save the best part for last
Most stories have a hero who finds
You make your past your past
Ya you make your past your past

It’s a brand new day
The sun is shinning
It’s a brand new day
For the first time
In such a long long time
I know
I’ll be ok

This cycle never ends
Gotta fall in order to mend

And it’s a brand new day
It’s a brand new day
For the first time
In such a long long time
I know
I’ll be ok

- Joshua Radin

Random Thoughts

I have looked into the eyes a Woman who has Loved me. I have - I still feel it. The feeling resonates within me like a song. And I know the words, like like they stumbled from my own tongue; but they didn't. However, I know that everything happens for a reason. And we are not together now for a reason. And it is what it is.

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Without accepting the things I have done in my past, I will never be happy. Without accepting the person I am now, it is impossible to move forward and change myself fundamentally; to better myself. And that what this is going to take because that's what I want to do.

"Yes, I have become a Ferryman. Many people have to change a great deal and wear many clothes. I am on of those, my friend." Herman Hesse - Siddhartha-

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edited April 6, 2009

Reaffirmation

I desire of all things to become a Man. A real Man is Love.

I will live my life making choices based on what in my heart feels right. I will live my life honestly, gratefully, selflessly, and with a sense of humor. I will live my life loyally, compassionately, and of all things, I will remember and be aware of who I want to be. I will live my life with purpose, and I will remember my purpose daily.

I will live understanding that I am only here to Love. I am Love.

Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear - Ambrose Redmoon

edited April 6, 2009

Awareness

Steven Covey says that awareness is the motivation, it's up to you to continue that and create the momentum.

Merriam-Webster's definition is having or showing realization, perception, or knowledge.

So, awareness is a funny thing, right? How often do you ask yourself, "sup. how do you feel?" "How do you actually feel about this?"

When was the last time you looked into the mirror and actually smiled because you were so satisfied with the person you were, on the inside? I challenge you, look yourself in the mirror and ask "what am I not doing good enough?"

Let's say you ask yourself. What kind of response will you get? Is the response genuine? And more importantly, where did the response come from? That's really the only thing that matters. Did it come from your heart?

That's awareness. And in my opinion, that is one of the fundamentals of living a Courageous and Loving life.

edited April 6, 2009

Jillian Maureen

Jillian Maureen = Amazing.

She is everything I will ever want in a Wife, Mother, and friend. She gave me her life, her body, her heart, and her all. She has the most amazing heart of any I have ever seen. She is smart, beautiful, challenging, compassionate, and loyal. And even to this day, the Love I felt still inspires me to become a better person. The Love I felt changed my life.

And For the first time, I am not scared. And for those things Jillian, I will always be grateful.

edited April 19, 2009